Why am I not updating Story of Seasons?
The actual state of The Story of Seasons: Winter
I need to address what happened with my Isekai story thing, which I've been working on for the last year.
Not to dilly dangle BUT I got a bit I wanna say depressed, I worked so much in the first run of it with original artwork and the story and everything that is connected with my little love letter to isekai's... but the outcome of it was lower than expected. I put a lot of love into it and a lot of my time and it seemed like there was no real interest in it. For months I have been trying to make sense of what I had to do, but sadly with how it came upon... I realized that maybe it wasn't such a good idea to put it out if I didn't feel ready for all that.
Also, I had the other project looming not to mention all the stuff that came upon after the break up on the podcast later last year as well... I don't talk about much but it did fucked me up more than I could have realized, not to mention all the real-life problems that I try to keep close to my chest... it has been a lot going on for me.
That did not stop me from writing, that's why I brought a Re-Write of it, in the last year I did grow as a writer and it did help me to portray better the story that I had in hand but all of a sudden I just flat stopped last month.
June for me was... overwhelming.
I had a breakdown earlier in the month because of money and other personal issues and I had to find a way to fix everything ( because I am insane like that, I wanted to fix everything FAST...it didn't fix like that) thanks to my Husband I did come through it ok. But Last month I had such a bad time that I just mainly focused on the other project (even telling my hubby to MAKE IT HAPPEN cause I DID NEED IT to focus on other things).
I stopped doing streams and other things because I did not feel like it really made me feel anything... also not a lot of viewers.
Discouraged.
It boils all down to that, I felt discouraged from all that happened, I felt ignored and my brain just focused on the bad and wrong and it was really BAD for me.
Not to even mention... Twitter ( X whatever) did not help with the zero interaction with anything, Cara is helping but it's not as much as I wanted... YES, I need to be more social but has been tough on me, I wish I had some time to do that but to be honest when I get home, after a long night-morning shift... the least of my desires is to go out and be social with anyone in the internet. If I have some energy I sit and start doodling, and I am putting my energy on the other story.
So yeah, I feel in a very low place with my Isekai Baby right now, but that's the nature of the beast... Some stories, Projects, or Dreams do not get to be fulfilled as one wishes.
I really want people to love and know my characters but it seems like I'm just a little blue dot on a weird vast universe of better stories and more original concepts.
That's fine.
Over the weeks, I am still writing it... the rewrite.
Will it ever see any light?
I have no idea, I don't wanna waste my time showing stuff that nobody cares really to see, BUT I will keep drawing my characters... they give some sense of comfort and wholesome while I draw them and make them grow.
Would continue publishing it if it gets around but as time has been passing I feel I am just gonna keep them close to my heart.
It does have an ending, It does have a second part... IT HAS A WHOLE WORLD DEVELOPED... But...
Again I don't feel the need to keep going with it, at least publicly.
This is not like OH I HAVE A BLOCK, that doesn't happen with me, even in my time of hardships... if anything it makes me work even harder so I can block the bad vibes with better vibes.
I just don't feel like working it "seriously". It helps me to relax and make my mind wander away into other worlds and inspires me, so yeah... I will keep that world alive at least like I said close to the vest.
But in conclusion...
It was fun, it still is... maybe soon I will post a new chapter.
I will keep drawing stuff but at my pace...
I will keep doing the podcast...
And of course, I will put effort more into the mutual project and it's cause it has a better chance to get to being seen out there.
I do wanna say thank you to the few people who gave it a chance to follow and check the updates, there are not many of y'all out there, and if there is any feedback I will gladly read it in the comments, if not I wish everyone happiness and hope things are getting along on your travels.
You can find my stuff now on Cara and the other substack page.
Until next time!
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